1.10.25

 Just need to get this off my chest while I'm on my lunch break.

But I am so, so, so, soooo tired of people (especially the younger generation) acting so patronizing and condescending when someone expresses their point of view or making a simple, neutral statement. It's part of the reason why I stepped back from having a voice on the Internet for so long. There was an animation recommended to me (I had already seen it though) and someone made a comment stating what they felt about the video, and someone (who noticeably got more likes) responded saying "it's not that far fetched, cutie."

Can we stop this attitude? For everyone?

And I GET it's the Internet. I get that people are anonymous and can say whatever they want. But the problem with this!!! is that this attitude is finding it's way more and more into the real world, because there are no repercussions and each generation is being raised more and more on the Internet, and becoming more comfortable with being apathetic and unwilling to listen to others.

Reading comments on major social media platforms sucks.

"I AIN'T READING ALL THAT *skull emoji"

12.22.24

I just had this thought about how grateful and blessed I am to not only start a new job this past week, but also train with their graphic designer who is retiring. I am taking over her position, essentially. She has been so kind and giving, and providing me with her knowledge and wisdom regarding the job. She's happy to see someone come in and take the reins, and she doesn't have any feeling of fear or loss that I am taking over, and I just find that really important. I guess it's kind of an epiphany that I had.

I have definitely gotten (or at least felt) competitive when it came to my occupation. I've had a few graphic design positions in the past few years, which I am beyond blessed. But I’m really trying to lose that sense of ego. It really isn’t attractive or healthy.

It also made me think of how some artists will tend to hide their “secrets” because they don’t want other aspiring artists copying them, not share their techniques, how they got certain effects, or even jump cut or crop out something they’re doing in a speed paint (please keep in mind that I have noticed these things long before the rise of AI, so the argument of not wanting to show methods or techniques that could potentially train it would not necessarily apply here). I understand wanting to keep something that is yours so you can achieve your results, but really there is no point in holding onto it so hard. There’s only so many ways you can achieve results, and eventually someone else is going to find out how. Much like with music and how many lawsuits are out there because someone just so happened to use a similar chord progression in one part of the song. We are not the first artists and designers.

At the end of the day, nothing is original nor does anyone own a certain way of painting or drawing. I wouldn’t be where I was today if everyone hid everything and didn’t share their knowledge. Everyone deserves the gift of learning and I really believe we should share that, and working with this beautiful soul at my new job has been a humbling experience for myself. I aspire to be that way when I have the opportunity to teach another aspiring artist or designer.

12.6.24

Totally random post, but I like to watch organization and decluttering videos sometimes (I spend more time watching than doing >_>) and inevitably the minimalism videos will pop up. That's like, totally fine and all, but I have a different opinion when children get involved. I did see one video where this mom was like "oh yeah, we condensed my kids' toys down to like five but that teaches them to be creative with what they already have!!!!!!" and I get that, and I'm not saying these kids should be drowning in tons of toys because yes, they do get overwhelmed if they have too much to play with and decision fatigue kicks in. But what I'm wondering is what's happening behind closed doors. What's happening that isn't broadcast to YouTube? I'm sure at some point the kids are going to start noticing that mom or dad are making tons of money from promoting minimalism and maybe using that for new (expensive) filming equipment but it's just TOO MUCH AND CAPITALIST to buy my kids toys!

And while the parents do counter this with "oh we use the money for experiences instead of toys" and I guess as long as everyone is happy then that's great, but also spending money on experiences (are we talking theme parks? Laser tag? John's Incredible Pizza?) is still kinda putting money into corporations' pockets. You're still spending money. Yes, it's not on tangible objects, but it's still consumerism.

 I also just don't agree with minimalism, or at least influencers' concept of it :'D

Like I believe in minimalism in the sense that everything you own brings you joy and/or is functional.

But making lots and lots of money and sitting in an almost empty house doesn't make sense to me.

The money's going somewhere. :'D

Not saying you gotta be in debt to enjoy life, but you can still have hobbies and treat your kids to something every once in a while without ending up on the streets. :D

10.26.24

 I went to my friend's dance recital tonight and it was so fun! It was candy themed and all the dancers did amazing *0* We talked for a bit after the show and we're going hiking tomorrow! It was nice being able to see this. It helped get my mind off the awful week I've been having.

Also my cat came in just now and did that creepy thing where it looks like she's attacking invisible bugs XD

10.23.24

 I just put my first digital drawing of my fursona (from 2011) onto my website, and remembered that her name was B.C., although she probably had that name for a week at the very most.

I have no idea why tho. I think my brother and I came up with it. I don't even think it stood for anything.

10.19.24

 Today my brother and I went out to the new Lego store near us, which was about a 25 minute drive. I was so relieved they were actually open when we got there, since a few months ago I thought they had already opened but it was still ~coming soon~ :P

We had to stand in line for a bit but we eventually got in. I was kinda surprised how small it was cause I thought it would be the same size as the one in Downtown Disney in CA. It was still nice to see and look around, though. Then I went into Bath & Body Works to see if they had the Pumpkin Pecan Waffles candle and they did! I have it in the hand sanitizer and I loveeee it.

Tonight was also the last night for the theater production I was working on! I helped out on wardrobe. It was a fantastic production and the energy was great. I’m looking forward to the next one!

10.18.24

 This is my first blog entry!

I had a very slow day at work. Then I came home and had to let the emotions out. Then I played with my cat, Koko!

I've also been staring at computer screens all day cause I'm obsessed with making my own websites. I feel like my eyes are gonna fall out :P